Epiphany

So i had an epiphany today.

i was on my way home from my dad’s house.  Perhaps i should tell you why i was at my dad’s house.

Alderon had 18 of his teeth extracted this morning.  Yes, that is correct; eighteen teeth are now gone from his gums.  Since He had to have surgery and i still had to work to pay the bills, my dad agreed to watching my daughter for a few days – except for tonight.  Tonight is men’s pool league night.  So i ran out to dad’s house for a few hours to watch my own daughter while he went to play pool.  The drive home is about half an hour away so i had time to think.

Thus the epiphany.  Well, not really an epiphany, but it sounded good so i’m going with it.

i have decided that i am not a sub.  i’m not a slave.  i’m not a pet or property or any of that fun stuff.

i’m just me.  So i am going to act just like me; instead of however others who hold those labels act.  Maybe with less pressure on myself, i’ll quit worrying about less important things.

And if you are about to say ‘duh’, don’t bother; i know that it was a duh moment when you’re outside looking in.  Coming from my perspective though, it was pretty damn close to a not so ‘duh’ moment.

~niya